Baba Ji and Ahsan
It was just another day, I was at work at Lidl but I really had this stress on my heart which was making me sigh and be miserable. I just was feeling really down that day. My manager Lee even asked my if I was okay several time and even Caron was insisting on me to smile. I was just coming off the till when I look behind and saw Mosan out of breath. I was like, “Mosan what’s up with you?” He replied keeping really strong “You have to come home quick, Baba Ji has died”. I cannot explain how powerful the words from Mosan’s mouth actually were. It felt like I am falling and there was no way to stop or a bit like jumping out of a plane but with no ending. 29 May 2010, I will never be able to forget it.
I explained to my Manager that I had to leave because Baba Ji
had died, and he was very understanding and let me go. I really kept strong and tried my best not to cry but I just couldn’t help it. Someone so fundamental to my life, upbringing and mentality has left us.
If you’re reading this, you have read my previous posts and you probably have realised how my success is because of Baba Ji being my inspiration and I am sure you know how much I love Baba Ji. Baba Ji, was not just loved by me but so many people. Baba Ji helped so many people sincerely and Allah has and will reward him for this.
I wanted to go to see Baba Ji for the last time, but even in my emotional state I was able to think. I thought to myself, Baba Ji has gone, I as in me, as in I, as in Ahsan, the thing inside me wants to see Baba Ji. But why is it when Baba Ji thought so much for me, I am thinking about myself? I decided not to go, because if I went I would have gone for my sake but I, Alhamdulilah stayed for my Baba Ji because I could do so much more by staying. I was able to pray for Baba Ji for which I know, if I was travelling I would not have been able to.
The whole family, the whole village the whole city of Mirpur felt the loss of Baba Ji as people witnessed the biggest Janaza (funeral) they had ever seen. This was a person with a great heart who helped and cared for everyone who came to him. Who could not have any bad views for anybody. Even those who hurt Baba Ji’s feelings were prayed for by Baba Ji.
I can carry on and on about how Baba Ji was but I don’t want to. Baba Ji was great which is why he is remembered every day and every night. Since Baba Ji has gone, I can’t think of a day I have not thought of him.
Baba Ji has left me with a lot of knowledge and dua’s but I have so many questions to ask baba Ji and so much more to learn. This I guess, is what we call life. Who do you know in this day and age who prepares for their own death? Baba Ji did, he had his own coffin made by Sufi Mahmood. Shows how Baba Ji lived his life thinking about his death.
I don’t and can’t write anymore as it makes me emotional but I would like to emphasise a point. Baba Ji has gone and I have to face this fact. It hurts a lot and the reality is painful but I have to face it. I as his grandson can do 3 things, the first is to do Esal e Sawab, the second is to do sadka e jariya on Baba Ji’s behalf and the final and most important is to be a good Muslim myself and a good person. I pray to Allah Almighty, the All Knowing and the most Affectionate that He helps me become a better person just like my Baba Ji who tried his upmost to follow the steps of Rasoolalah Sallallahu Alyhi Wasallam.
It was only yesterday, I sat here looking at Baba Ji’s photo and cried. I don’t know why I cried, probably because I miss Baba Ji but I was asking Allah lots of questions.
Oh Allah, when I used to go Pakistan, I used to go because of Baba Ji, and to me going to Pakistan evolved around Baba Ji. How will I go now?
Oh Allah, if I did go to Pakistan, how will I be able to handle going home and doing what I always do, meeting Baba Ji before everyone when Baba Ji won’t be there?
Oh Allah, to whom will I give my really good news to and who will pray for my from their heart?
Oh Allah, because of Baba Ji I have made it this far, because of Baba Ji’s du’a but what will happen now? I am now without these special prayers made by Baba Ji?
Oh Allah, when I graduated, the first person who knew of this achievement was Baba Ji, who am I going to share my achievements with now?
Oh Allah, don’t think I am questioning you in a degrading manor because I know you are the all knowing and whatever happens is for the best.
“And to Allah belongs the inheritance of the heavens and the earth….” (Surah Aal-Imraan:180)
“The kingdom of the heavens and the earth and everything in them belongs to Allah. He has power over all things.” (Surat al-Ma’ida: 120)
‘Say: ‘To Allah belongs the East and the West…’ (Surah al-Baqarah:142)
Take note of the words of the Prophet (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) on the occasion of the death of his son. Ibraahim: ‘Our eyes are filled with tears, our hearts with grief, but we say nothing with our lips except that which pleases Allah… Verily, to Allah we belong, and to Him we return.’ (Bukhaari).
Subhanallah
I am happy for Baba Ji but us humans we are selfish, I keep thinking about my personal loss. But I do understand my Baba Ji has gained so much more than my loss. Baba Ji is in a better place and everyone is praying for Baba Ji.
I miss Baba Ji that is all I can say and I always will.
May Allah open the Doors of Janah for Baba Ji
Ameen.
When I was crying yesterday I was saying to Allah that I was yet to ask for my second gift from Baba Ji for my graduation, but how will I get it now?
Today is the next day and I have received a gift from Allah because of Baba Ji. We are poor people, no one important or special but because of Baba Ji, Allah Almighty sent a great scholar to our house. Subhanallah.
I really admired the greatly respected Qari Sadaqat Ali from a very young age, and listed to his talawat a lot. Qari Sadaqat Ali was the student of Qari Abdul basit and what a great honor it was to have him at our house. Qari Sahib was not invited by us, I was just called by my best friend that they would be coming and a few minutes later, Qari Sahib was at our house paying his respects and making dua for Baba Ji.
Baba Ji’s first gift was an amazing event itself. I was sitting down with Baba Ji and I humbly requested Baba Ji to get me a gift to take home with me. Baba Ji asked me what I wanted. And believe me if I asked Baba Ji for the world, it seemed like Baba Ji would get it me. I said to Baba Ji, get me whatever you want but it must be from you and you must get it for me yourself. Baba Ji did, and the gift Baba Ji got me was exactly what I had in my heart and I wanted.
This time, I was just upset and when your upset you moan to Allah and look at the gift?
I believe I was in my youth when Allama Sialvi Sahib became the Imam of our Masjid. Allama Sialvi Sahib was not a typical imam who did their Juma’s khutba and hit the road, but one who gave time and priority to the youth. Allama Sialvi Sahib came and braught great change to the youth and adults of
Allama Muhammed Din Sialvi Sahib
our community. He didn’t get paid any extra but sincerely started to give his own time to teach Islamic knowledge, the love of the prophet and so much other knowledge to our community.
More importantly, Allama Sialvi Sahib gave a lot of time to the youth and I was one of the fortunate ones who spent a lot of time with Allama Sialvi Sahib. In fact I got so attached to Allama Sialvi Sahib that I began to consider them as a friend. We would often phone each other; I would go and see him when I could and getting closer to Allama Sahib made me closer to Islam.
Prior to this, I was just another Muslim who could read the Qur’an but Allama Sialvi Sahib taught me so much more, he taught us there is more to Islam. He began to teach us Hadith, how to make wudhu, how to perform Salah, and many other fundamental aspects of Islam. This is when I became interested in Islam and started to learn and read about Islam.
Allama Sialvi Sahib will always be my teacher and I will always make duah and have respect for him. May Allah prosper their life.
Surah Takathur (102)
- The mutual rivalry for piling up of worldly things diverts you,
- Until you visit the graves (i.e. till you die).
- Nay! You shall come to know!
- Again, Nay! You shall come to know!
- Nay! If you knew with a sure knowledge (the end result of piling up, you would not have occupied yourselves in worldly things)
- Verily, You shall see the blazing Fire (Hell)!
- And again, you shall see it with certainty of sight!
- Then, on that Day, you shall be asked about the delight (you indulged in, in this world)!
We live in a very materialistic world today. I am for one guilty of this and often wish and desire to have a nice car, sexy new laptop or even a nice big house. In order to get these things we often go astray.
Many people do not realise how ungrateful we act in our daily lives. Be honest how many times do we ask for more? Then when we have more? We want more? And more and more? We are always unhappy.
I feel that Allah the most beneficent has organised the “rizk” we will get, but the problem is the rizk we get will not be of our choice. We want Allah Almighty to give us rizk of our choice, we want Allah the creator to fulfil all of our desires. Although we are Allah’s loving people, we are not that loved that we think we will get whatever we want, the way we want and when we want.
Let me give you an example, In winter if someone comes to ask for a blanket, we should try our best to help the poor person as it is cold. However, if someone comes and asks for a blanket but he starts to be specific and says “I need a blanket… in silk please” it’s best to kick him out lol.
We will ask Allah our creator for food to live, but we tend to think that when we ask for food we’ll get a donner kebab or a pizza. You will get what Allah will give so be great full as Allah is all knowing and knows better than us.
The takaathur mentioned in the Quan is of two kinds: in amwaal and/or in awlaad. Both may distract from the remembrance of Allah i.e. being mindful of His Commands all the time and in all the matters. The Quran says in 9:69 that you have become just like the people, who lived before your time. They were more powerful than you, had greater wealth and larger progeny. They enjoyed their share of these things for a limited period (and then got perished). Likewise you also enjoy your share of good things of life for some time: and the way they wasted their lives in frivolous things, you also continue doing that. (But remember one thing) these are the people whose entire works and activities, whether they are for this world or for the here-after – all lay waste. So it is they – the entire lot of them who are the losers! “Have they not travelled in the land and seen the nature of the consequence for those who were before them? They were stronger than these in power, and they dug the earth and built upon it more than these have built. But all that they accomplished was of no profit to them” [30:9][40:82]
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